Day 11

The Joy of Family!

These are my 2 favorite people in the entire world. I was privileged to have my husband and son join me this evening for my 5K. Even though it is my “duty” to spend time with them, I am honored that I GET to spend the rest of my life with these two! I didn’t always feel this grateful. A shift in mindset happened these past couple years. Sadly, I was feeling “robbed” of my dream life. I had always planned to return to work and move up the ranks of my career. But when Caiden’s diagnosis began to unfold, reality set in. I was needed at home...indefinitely. The cold truth is: I resented my innocent boy for taking away the dream life I thought was mine by right. I resented my husband for being able to flee to the office and get away from the constant demand of caregiving. I resented my him for getting to have adult conversations and being able to worry about something other than our child’s lack of development. Thankfully, I was knocked off my pedestal of entitlement when our neurologist informed me that our son was at high risk of SUD—sudden unexplained death—secondary to the type of seizures he had developed. My perception of what I thought my life should look like no longer seemed to matter. Enjoying every moment with my precious boy, just as he is, became everything! My foolish jealousy of my husband’s role seems petty now. My perception of what was important was a terrible case of FOMO rooted in a lie that distanced me from my family, my mission and my destiny. The truth is my husband Nathan is my biggest fan and my closest best friend; and our beautiful, wonderful son is the absolute best thing that will ever happen to us! Caiden is our vehicle to becoming the people we are destined to be! He is also the most beautiful creature on this earth and I am privileged to be his momma. Period.
What is your perception of your family situation? What may need to shift in order for you to begin to enjoy them more?