Day 23 All In

Many times, when we attempt to reach a lofty goal, as we lose the initial euphoria of starting a new quest, we slip into just going through the motions. Inevitably, the goal remains unreached...attempt failed. We then point out the many “good” reasons for not reaching the goal and secretly vow never to try again. If we are completely honest with ourselves, we will see there are ways in which we could have given it our all, but for some strange reason we chose not to. My fitness goals are really a microcosm for my greater mission in life—to be the best wife and mother I can be. If I’m honest, there are definitely ways in which I, at times, hold back in both of these relationships. Examples: Every time I choose to look at my phone instead of my husband’s eyes during a conversation. When I decide to allow the IPad to remain on, instead of fully engaging with my son, no matter his ability to reciprocate. The fear that keeps me from going “all in” with my efforts at intimacy is wrapped up in this question: what if the best I have to offer isn’t enough? The funny thing is the fear that our “all” may not be enough, keeps us from being just that—enough. And, if we are fair and kind with ourselves, we can admit that giving our all IS more than enough! When was the last time you went all in with any goal? How can you stop holding back in becoming fully engaged?