Day 13

Fear of failure.
Change is hard. Especially if you have a child with special needs who counts on routine. The routine may be great for your child, but it could be a detrimental rut for you. If I’m truthful, I will admit I was bored doing the same thing day in and day out for my Caiden. I wanted to try something new to get me out of a deep funk, but I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to follow through because my child might need me. Also, feelings of guilt emerged anytime I considered doing something just for me. To sum it up, I was afraid to fail—fail at doing everything in my power to help my boy reach his full potential! My mind would race: “if I’m not with him, exercising him, teaching him, nursing him, then I must be failing.” Hi my name is Monica and I’m a perfection junkie. Even now, as I have had to amend this challenge due to my weak aching ankles, I have had to get over my guilt that it is not EXACTLY as I had planned. (Fear of failing in front of people!) So if your looking to make a change, ie diet, exercise, new hobby, whatever—start small, easy and expect to fail! BUT stay committed. No one changes over night, but over time slowly but surely.
Want to make a change but scared of what that might mean for your life? Afraid of discomfort, inconvenience and/or failure? Is remaining in fear worth not making the change?